Today... I had a moment.

Today started out like every other day. Alarm goes off at 6:15, I hit snooze a couple of times, and eventually get up around 6:30. Go to wake up the kids, and as usual, they don't wanna get up. Then there's my husband...who's alarm has been going off since around 5:30, and he doesn't want to get up either. I co sleep with my youngest, so if anyone else co- sleeps- you know - I didn't get "real" sleep... and I got maybe 5-6 hours at best. Anyway, I finally get the kids up, get them dressed, take them in to school, and through the breakfast line. Today was whole grain biscuits with gravy, and fruit. Yep, I'm that mom that is too lazy, or tired..or not peppy enough to get up and make my kids breakfast at the crack of dawn. I am NOT a morning person, and the school here has pretty darn good food, and choices...same type of things I'd have for them here anyway. Okay so I came home, immediately I get ready for class...then it's time to head out....normally I take Beck to my cousins, who watches him while I'm in class, but today daddy stayed home with him, so I had a little extra time to go a little slower. I go to three classes on campus. First break is only 5 minutes in between, and second is only 10.
I got out of class, and since Beck was here with daddy, I was able to come home and relax while they napped for about half an hour before I went and got the big kids from school. I enjoy the quiet moments when I can because once the big kids are home- chaos ensues. I looked around, I've got a table full of laundry to fold and put away (in the middle of my living room no less), two sinks full of dishes, and toys everywhere....don't even care- I'm SITTING here for this half an hour when I get the chance. Go get the big kids, come home, do snack...send them outside to play... Beck is up by now, so he is cranky pants after nap...so I hold him - to do EVERYTHING>... when he finally chills out...it's time to start dinner, and somehow that's an invitation for EVERYONE to come into the kitchen and ask me for a MILLION things...they need this, they want to help, the little one is dumping crap out, and tearing my pencils up... and so on... I pretty much have a meltdown this time of day, every single day. EVERY. day. I am only ONE person...I cannot please 4 other people and 2 dogs all at once. I cannot do it, and I know I can't....but they don't.
Fast forward to bedtime- Beck won't go to sleep without cuddles, and I was so frustrated because I knew I had so much to do before bedtime that I couldn't do because he needed cuddles. I look over and he's looking at me, just smiling, then he just puts his hand on my face and gives me a kiss, and then lays down and looks at me with that same smile just staying on his face. So sweet, so peaceful. HOw dare I?! I realized in that moment- that IS what matters...those damn dishes and those piles of clothes don't matter...they just don't.... THIS Is the moment that matters. He just needed ME.... just for one hour or so- just to chilll out and just be with him, calm him, love him. He finally went to sleep, and I felt so good just laying there looking at his sweet face...God I love that kid... I love him so freaking much..just being by him made me so calm, and made me feel loved.
Afterward I was able to get up and go love on the crazy big kids...hugs and kisses... and I dunno..just seeing all their sweet faces at night time makes me realize how much I love them. I know it gets crazy.... I know they can be difficult, but all they want is me. My time, my love, my attention.
I have got to stop saying "in a minute",  and "can it wait"... because NO it can't. I won't lie- i'm not going to stop cooking dinner, or put down everything right when they ask- but from now on- I AM going to make sure when I'm present- I'm actually THERE and involved..not just going through the motions...and once 8 hits- I'm DONE... done for the day... it will save my sanity.
I knowt his is just a bunch of babbles, I just felt so good seeing my babies today- after allthe chaos... just looking at them and seeing that no matter what- they love me for me...
now if i just had a maid......

I'm a...freshman...at 30?! Oye

Today was my first day in college. I'm a freshman. I am 30 years old. 13 years ago I was starting my senior year of HIGH SCHOOL. This is just insane. Where did the time go? It really hit me today doing some introductions in sociology class. There were sophomores in there younger than me. I had to say "I'm a freshman". It felt SO silly. It's one of those moments that kind of slaps you into reality.
Gone are the skinny, low rise jeans, tight tank top, in style, cool moments. I am NOT cool. I am 30. I'm not "old", but I'm "older"....lol.... It just hit me today that's all. 30 never really bothered me until today! I'm not exactly sure where I fit in, but ah who needs to fit in right?
All that aside, today was a good first day of college. I am some super nice professors, that have some interesting stories to tell! I think this is going to be a great semester! I won't even start on how hard I think next semester will be! HA! I hope everyone else that went back today had a great day as well!
I came home- kids were crazy! lol...Thank goodness they start school tomorrow as well, or I'd never get anything done! I adore my kids, but this summer has been insane! I've kept them pretty busy, but I can only do so much. I have a new appreciation for my own mother, who also raised 3 kids! Luckily I'm not doing it on my own like she had to!

Can I just say- I wish I'd have stayed in college after high school?! I'm not sure about others my age, except a few, but I think we all wish we'd have just gotten it over with while we were young, carefree, and CHILDLESS! lol... Here's to a great semester, and a great next 4 years!

Once again..it's been awhile

Okay, lol.... Seems like every time I finally get around to blogging again- I have to always say "it's been awhile". HA! Our computer crashed, and I finally got a new laptop! woot! I don't even know who follows me, or even reads this, but I'm bored sooooo here I am.

I start school on monday! YIKES! 30 years old and starting from the bottom. I could say I'm not nervous and this is awesome, but that wouldn't be the truth. I am VERY excited to finally be going the path I should've been on from the start, but I am so nervous. I was looking at a syllabus for one of my classes and I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed and wonder what I'm getting myself into. This should be interesting to say the least.

Kids start school Tuesday! yay! Tonight is their meet the teacher night. I am terrified for them as well! Kindergarten and First grade are kind of a big deal. These teachers are shaping these kids! My kids are excited about school, and I'm grateful that they love it so much.

Kids are getting really big, they fight all the time. Beck has his own voice now and is pretty strong willed.

Not even going to lie- Tuesday- I'm taking a nap with Beck!! lol... I am one of "those" moms that is ready for school to start. If for nothing else but being able to shower and potty alone while the toddler naps. My house is always pretty chaotic and always has something to clean, and I"m just ready for a slow down.

Well....I guess I should take a shower before meeting the teachers... lets hope for good ones this year! we loved ours last year!!

out.

I got a JAdoreVoxBox

Okay I get these boxes now and then , but this one was really good!
I got the Jadore Vox Box around valentines day. As most of you know- we had a pretty bad car crash and I was busy with all of that stuff so I didn't get a chance to do all the activities as soon as I'd have liked, so I wanted to share now.http://instagram.com/p/lxcv8ukRoc/#

There's the lovely picture of all the products :)


Okay I h ave pretty short lashes, and they are no joke- STICK straight. I always have to use an eyelash curler, but these lashes looked really good. They blended in, didn't look unnatural. I wore contacts and they were fine....towards the end of the night I was irritated by them and ready to take them off, but I feel like that's normal

We all know herseys kisses ...so good..i shared with everyone!

The Mens Spray Lotion- My inital thought was it would be greasy and gross..it's NOT.. AT ALL. It actually smells really good, and goes on light and perfect. My husband really likes it- he uses it every morning actually. This is something I will have to buy more of around here..

The clay mask- wonderfulLlllllL!!! You know how sometimes the masks make your face feel SO tight and dry afterwards? well this one does NOT!! Loved it! I didn't care for the smell..it wasn't a BAD smell...just not one I liked..lol

The frizz ease- even as a professional _ I still like some John Frieda stuff- I know NAUGHTY...this was no exception. It did keep my hair straight- even after a nap with a toddler...lol... BUT 2nd day hair felt kind of sticky. Possibly because I have pretty straight hair? I don't know- Maybe b/c I like to wash my hair everyday or it makes me crazy- who knows...
OHHH for people with more fine hair- do NOT use more than like 3 sprays....or it's gross lol

And Red Rose Teas- it was good. I still prefer good ole Lipton plain iced tea- I AM from the south..lol... but it wasn't bad..


See Quick and painless...now have a great day and try some of these products! You won't regret it.

It came with:
Kiss Looks So Natural Lashes
Hersheys Kisses
Vaseline Mens Spray Lotion
Boots Botanics Sine Away Ionic Clay Mask
John Frieda Frizz Ease 3 Day Straight Flat Iron Spray
and Red Rose  Simply Indulgent Teas

This was all sent to me free from Influenster, and I was not paid for these reviews.