FINALIST!!

This girl is a finalist for Matrix Spread the Love, and I couldn't be more excited. I will be going to New York next month for the final interview. I just cannot believe this. Small town girl, never really been anywhere...this is so exciting. I cannot wait to meet everyone, see New York during Christmas time! AHHHHH I can't even put my excitement into words!! YAYYY ..lol


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 This was me yesterday ..lol :

My Veteran

It's a few days late, but I just wanted to say Happy Veterans day to a special man in my life, my husband Greg!! I do miss the army life sometimes, but I'm so glad to have you!! Also my uncle Donnie, and my brother Aaron are both currently serving. <3 them! :) As well as MANY friends, and extended family!!


Other than that...just a few days left for Spread the love voting... I'm getting pretty anxious about that..I hope I'm doing well with votes! :)

I PASSED state boards...wooo...got pretty good scores as well, ANDDD

we will be leaving for Texas soon to see my family, and I am SO beyond excited. I miss my family terribly! And of course I miss southern food, sweet tea, and honkey tonks, and lets not forget good ole southern charm...

Life is good right now... I'm just hoping with STL it'll get even better. I hope that next time I write a blog it's to announce I'm going to NYC!!

Night all!!

It just isn't good enough for me.

Well I wasn't chosen as one of the 18 on the panels list. I can still make this though- with votes. It ends on the 15th, and I'd like to say I'm doing well, but I really have no idea. I've been out and about in this little town networking, and telling everyone I can all about Spread the Love and what I am trying to achieve. I am so happy for the chosen finalists. They deserve it, they all seem like such wonderful people. I actually have become friends with one of the girls. I think she's pretty awesome and I hope she makes it all the way.
With that being said, I've seen so many people say how happy they are just to have made it this far. Is it weird that I'm not?I WANT to make it further. I want to push myself further, and I'm not satisfied with only making it to this round. I've never been one of those girls that settles for last place because I did my best. I want to be first place because I worked my booty off to get there. *shrug* I don't know..I'm just not happy with this. And that is why I've been out and about trying to get local support from everyone to get these votes. I feel like if I made finals, and then got cut...I could be satisfied knowing I did all that I could. That I actually WORKED for those votes to be there. That's the kind of person I am. So for me to say that I'm happy with it, I'd be lying.
If I don't make it through voting round, I will go to work, work on my skills, and try again next year....working even harder. I know that there is a bigger purpose for me. My big break has to come sometime. With all the things we've been through as a family, all that we've given to so many others, eventually it has to make it's full circle back to me. Right?
That's what I'm hoping anyways. I'll just keep holding onto this hope until there isn't anything to hang onto left...and that'll be when the last two names are announced. In my heart, I feel like neither of those names will be mine, but that could just be the negative me speaking.

On another note.... I took state boards on Monday. Talk about terrifying. I was nervous the ENTIRE time. I will find out in about a week if I passed. I hope I did. I'm pretty confident that I did just fine though.

And last but not least- it's snowing here- finally. The kids are so excited, but I'm ready for it not to be slush so I can take them out to play in it! :)